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Mozart Plays and Bach Plays Too

I just want to hide in my moody moodiness and eat all the Kit Kat bars that can be found and gain 5,000 pounds of pure indulgence and pleasure. I want to hibernate from all the bad and just awake to only what is good, fun, carefree and light.

Do not call Dr. Phil for advice, because I will not listen. Leave your ration and sensibilities out the door or else I will kick your ass off the curb and will not shed a remorseful tear for your stupidity. You can bring your candied well wishes and chocolate covered apologies, but don’t expect any brownie points.

In the background, Mozart plays and Bach plays too, so tonight I’ll try to see the world a little sunny side up and toast to that with some strawberry jam.

The Biased Heart and the Swayed Mind

I think, therefore, I am or is it I feel, therefore I am. I don’t know what comes first, the chicken or the egg, and at the end of the day I am not sure if it even matters. I no longer seem to feel and know what I used to know and feel. I am in a continuous twirling motion of questioning and doubting and again questioning and soon enough I am back to square one. I visit the local doctor and take my daily medicine to see if this or that will make me feel better, but the biased heart cannot be fixed and the swayed mind is too easy to control.

I should be this and I should be that, but I am neither. My waning faith in God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit does not even make me flinch, and now I just think about a life without heaven or hell and I am neither sad nor mad about it. Please sprinkle your positive energy onto my head and see if I’ll turn into a cupcake. Invite me over for dinner and serve some Faith, Hope and Love, but I may leave of indigestion. Mix me a cocktail of shaken not stirred Truth and I may give you a call back for some more. Break me off a piece of that KitKat bar, and I might be your best friend tonight.